Cheesy - I know. I was playing with the lights last night - actually shooting some macro shots - and decided to turn the camera on moi. I'll let you in on a little secret about me - I'm not comfortable growing old - and I don't like seeing it happen. I'm very critical of myself - but I have to learn to be happy with who I am. It's not easy, but I'm working at it. I'm less than 4 years away from turning 50. I think for most men 50 is a major milestone - I know it will be for me.

Being on the other side of mid-forty hasn't been easy for me. It's harder to stay in shape. I can't eat as much as I used to (unless I start wearing pants with the elastic waist band -- UH -- NO)... and it's hard to see my youth fade -- really hard.

I suppose the good thing is I feel younger now than I probably felt when I was 18 -- dunno if that makes sense - but I was a pretty serious dude at 18 - the weight of the world was upon me. Now, well, I'm enjoying life - and things that used to bother me - don't any longer... I just wish gravity wouldn't take such a toll on my physical being... it sucks... I'm really trying hard not to let that bother me either...

I'm rambling - probably not making any sense... but just thought I'd share a bit of what goes on behind those aging brown eyes... thanks for listening...

When the bird and the book disagree, always believe the bird. -John James Audubon

Listening to: Strutter - Kiss (one of the first songs I learned to play - drove the neighbors crazy)

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